Letter 3

February 12, 2010

Dear God,

It’s almost Valentine’s Day and I am getting distracted. I guess this is the only way I can help organized my thoughts.

I have written two letters, once every year since 2008, and both directed to this “girl” that I may or may not have met. In both letters, I have written about how when I meet her, I will be a gentleman that will cherish and love her unconditionally. I have written of how I will open doors for her, pay for her meals, give her rides, and make her happy. I also talked about how I was looking for her and that I will find her. I have often thought about how I will treat this “girl.” I will make her feel special, I will buy her gifts, and I will tell her that she is beautiful. I will love her like you love me.

I know that all these things are good. You even told us that we should love others as ourselves (Luke 10: 27). But there's a problem; though my intentions are great, my priorities were misplaced.

My focus was “when I meet her” instead of “if I meet her.”

I was so caught up with my plans that I forgot to acknowledge yours. I was so focus on “loving other as myself” that I forgot that that wasn’t the first and greatest command (Luke 10: 27). I was so focus on my fulfilling my desires that I forgot to delight in you (Psalms 37: 4).

Of course I wanted to get married. I would love to meet this “girl.”

BUT,

I realized that I was making all these plans without ever considering you will. Not only that, I began asking myself that if your will for my life is to remain single, would I be willing to live with that? More times than not, I find myself hesitant to answer. See, I have made my plans and held on to them too tight and you had to tear my fingers from it.

So, this shall be the end of the letters to this “girl” and the start of more to You.

My desire is you seek after You with all my heart, mind, soul, and strength. To love You with all that I am. I still have plans. Many of them. But until I can be completely satisfied in You, those plans will have to wait.

“The mind of man plans his ways, but the LORD directs his steps.” – Proverbs 16: 9

And these plans that I have, I will now hold them out on opened hands. So that if my plans are not your plans, you won’t have to rip it out of me. Instead, I will gladly give it up, in exchange for a grander plan;

Your Plan.

Because Your ways are far beyond anything I can imagine (Isaiah 55: 8 NLT)!

Love,
Harold.