Spring Break

Spring Break

No more tests, studying, or worries. At least for a few days. It's nice to be able to just stop and think. No distractions, just me and Jesus. Finally, I have time to reflect on all the craziness that has been going on recently.

12 weeks have past since Passion 2010. I miss my family group and the friends that I've made. I am trying to keep in touch with all 11 of them. Sending messages every week to hopefully be an encouragement and occasionally a text message just to see how they are doing. I have really only heard from 4 of them. I know that it is not an obligation to reply, but it is very encouraging to hear what God is doing in their lives.

Thank you Justin for replying to my messages and even though you didn't get to go to California, I am sure God has a great plan for you at Kentucky! Thank you Morgan for helping me lead family group at Passion and for your random encouragements from time to time which makes me smile! Thank you Stephanie for replying even when you are busy and also for letting me in on the amazing things that God is doing in your life! Thank you Lauren for going to the breakout session with me at Passion and for always willing to talk about Breakaway and how awesome God is! You guys rock.

I have two people that are constantly in my mind. I would give up anything to see them grow in a deeper relationship with God. I have tried for a year to get them to come to church or perspective with me. Only one has somewhat accepted that invitation. I am not sure what is happening in his life but this is a good start! The other person however, has been ignoring every single one of my invitations. Sure she has came to church with me a few times but now she is even starting to ignore those. I have thought about giving up many time but I just can't do it. Not sure how I can approach this because I don't think she consider me that good of a friend. I guess this is the heartache of ministry, when you long to see someone you love to love God and realizing that there isnt much you can do to make them choose that.

I know of 6 couples that are getting married. But to be honest, being single doesn't bother me as much as it used to. It's not that I don't want to get married because I do. I guess it is because I am starting to trust that God's plan is better than mine. And whether I get married or be single for the rest of my life, God is still good and He still loves me. I am actually enjoying learning more about God and trying to excel in the revealed things. And as long as I remain single, I want my life to be undistracted and completely devoted to knowing God and making Him known. I gave up on looking for a potential girlfriend everywhere I go. It is so distracting and I would so much rather find her as I chase after God with all my heart than to try and look for "her" at Walmart. If I ever get married, there will be no doubt that God alone brought us together in a way only He can.

God is good. I am so thankful. I do not deserve any of what I have.

"Maker of heaven, giver of life, You are my strength, my song in the night. My refuge, my shelter now and forevermore. My help comes from the Lord" - The Museum, My Help Comes From The Lord.

Enough thinking, time for bed :)